Pick up the baton to Shaka and I'll try to do this meme. No promises, but will do what we can.
rules are fairly straightforward about it, be honest and write things that are worth, not group or book you like, but things about you. For those who want to read more, go to the post of Shaka directly.
1) I'm supposed young man, after all I have only 23, but some time I'm not at all well. Do not know if it's because I feel that a world of responsibilities that are supposed to accept those over 30 is upon me or because I feel that by now should have done something (Do not ask me the one that even I know) that I have not done that makes me sienta failed or because I'm doing something I do not want to do and what I'm doing because I have no other choice and I myself have been who has closed roads. Although the fact when a stranger addresses me Mrs. do as , does not help> _ \u0026lt;
When talking about all of the responsibilities I wanted to say I am happy that soon go live with Zn do not get me wrong, but all these preparations being made by my mother buying towels, cookware, kitchenware general, dishes ... Makes me feel confined. Of course I appreciate that we make things easy, but ... Not that I do not understand that money does not grow on trees and will not be easy, but I'm overwhelmed and tired everyonewhen he learns of the plan (which includes my parents) to come to talk about if I should get my act together and find a job, start saving ... And sometimes I feel like I was over there all the time I do not want.
2) I am not the same lately, and I know that people change, many people have made great change in my face when I started out with Zn , but that was because I had always been rare in everything and for the first time I felt accepted in a group of people without having to hide who prefer to spend an evening at home fiddling with the computer or reading to go shopping or take something to a bar every day systematically. Even was a relief to be with people who rarely have friends saw 20 years (Since mLIAM) older than me and I liked hanging out with them or tell them things and ask my advice. And it is a relief when you do not blackmail to stop next to friends who mean so much to you and without them you would have lost several times but helped you meet and talk with you until 7 am just because.
But when I say I've changed, I refer to those changes. It's because I feel more irritable than ever, with more poor than ever concentrated milk and above all, much less patient even than before. And I never have characterized me for my patience. Is that it should channel it into something productive, and above all keep out people who do not have any say, but I feel so helpless that I fear one day I stay alone by myself incpeaceful, because it is normal that people get tired and one day you back. And I do not know how I would like to change. That does not help that if you want, you can because sometimes it is not true.
3) I do not usually like labels, though I admit that for a long time take or attempt to take many of them because the feeling of exclusion that felt the most time to inclusion desperately seeking as it were, and that made made things I regret, and much, but having no remedy, for fuck me and accept (or try).
Despite that, I think I have good taste, in the sense that I am able to combine clothes or colors on a certain aesthetic harmony, but as this Harmoniaesthetics is measured according to my view that nothing is guided by current aesthetic trends, many people think that I did not fix or do not care how I look, something totally wrong, but to be honest, sometimes I feel a bit like me because I so unattractive that I have no desire for anything and if I'm 2 or 3 days without leaving home or not I take my pajamas.
I know everything about the weight and others are a matter of willpower but believe me when I say I do not work. A year ago, and some went to the endocrine and put me on a diet, and follow ... But it did not work. And I have not. Also because, for example, I just like anything during the day (no breakfast or lunch, do lunch and dinner only) and change that to 5 meals a day cost me horrors, so that discouraged me a lot whenand saw that it did not work and although I weigh, weight varies significantly during the year. Sometimes as obsessed as me, I spend weeks on end without eating almost nothing but some fruit, which quickly lowers me 5 or 6 kilos which I recovered extremely fast as I return to a food considered normal. Two summers ago, for example half weeks I was eating nectarines only 3 or 4 a day. To change was alone, did not have anyone to go and would not do it alone, so I shut myself at home and the result was 5 kilos unless it served me very much because after two weeks and had recovered. At other times, but for busy than anything else, I forget to eat at a time and then I do not want to cook, so I do not like all day, cnor dare I honestly losing sleep, but then I feel so tired and weak I try not happen often.
Anyway, here I leave this point that I have strayed from the subject lot xDD
4) When I do not like the topic of conversation I lock myself in my, answer with monosyllables and tend to irritate a lot, but this only happens to me with the monologue of I think my parents have fun with me sermons every time they come to feel better for not being here the rest of the time, and now this Zn, but did not care before I put enfema or anything happened to me, no it had more than later and did not appeal to anyone, mostly because as much as in Valencia this my father, my aunt or neighbors offer was aloneand that was the only thing that counted. With other people
Abstract me a bit, sometimes without realizing it, which is not always like it but this is how things are ...
Moreover, although some people do not or no longer seem so much so, I love talking, in fact it is often difficult to shut me up, especially if it's something I like, and I can spend hours talking about the same or be subject to change from one to another (as in the last game, we started talking about crappy sequels and just talking about Star Wars and how easy it would find Obi Wan Vader find her son on Tatooine and xD). Sometimes I have spent so much time talking to me suffers throat to the point may go in a nasty cough and durable, the kind that looks like you're going to drown.
Believe it or not, sometimes yes, I like to listen and learn, but such criticism depends modom not receive them very well, and not because he does not know that I'm wrong, you know, it bothers me while only the errors are fixed (ie my parents) that I irritate those situations.
5) I need many times more response from people than I receive, and is that even tries to deny it, still trying to fit in and be accepted . Prior to that I was too tired. I was always calling everyone, which was based on others and adapting, but I'm tired and I started to change, although it is a vicious circle that is hard to leave.
me again and see repateaz liver talk behind my back, mostly because experience tells em it's about bad things and can not stand. I prefer to come and throw me in the face pests not back. And what is curious, but for years I became a habitual liar and I was even simpler, and though I have lost the habit, I do not like being lied to. The most flagrant lies of my life have been directed at my parents for the circumstances (in favor of one or another in almost all cases), because other people are not used to lie more in desperate situations qeu saw no other way . But as I say, paradoxically, I do not like me do to me, I feel so horrible and I blame myself as doing so, I do not want anyone to see the lies.
6) Never Was, although I am a pretty perverted. I love to imagine situations more perverted every one that the previous ones that I am the protagonist and happen-almost-all sorts of things, auqnue never admit in person xDDD
The truth is that before I could hardly talk to my partner than I liked or not liked, but things changed with a person with whom I slept regularly for a couple of months, and that because of his age I guess I felt more confident to say that if it does not. Anyway, now I do not mind talking about sex out loud with people other than my partner, I guess because I see all this in more perspective than before or something. When I met
Zn, and had beenwith the person mentioned above and I think that aspect was found in a totally different person than he was before with my ex, I guess that age in the other person yuda to loosen in certain subjects and to some extent, although The situation ends badly, I'm glad I lived it gave me an experience I would never have achieved otherwise, and after all, that my partner happy today, so ... xDDD
As I said, I'm pretty perverted, I do not mind experimenting, reading, watching ... I love and I see exciting, whether a story, a porn movie or anything else, that if ever I plantearia be unfaithful because they just do not want to fool Zn but I went once and I left very scalded but it helped me see the falta of passion and love that was between them and helped me to break, which turned out not bad.
7) As much as the proverb says that a nail out another nail , I do not see well, even breaking with someone you will never be forgotten, much less replace, not only because it I think that is possible but because it is not fair to him that will not for next year.
fondly remember my ex but although I romnpi with, I can never forget him because it made me happy at the time, nor I will forget my girl Paula but now we see more than once in a while, because was a great friend whom I remember fondly. Similarly, I'm not going to forget a friend who had great affection and it willto almost 4 years committed suicide. I do not think, so as you can not replace or create false memories can be forgotten or replace those that are attached to them, but not exactly remember his face or name.
I at least, I can forget any name or facial features, but I can never forget what that person lived with for a long time to happen. It is also true that the way I have left more people than I like, but all to a greater or lesser extent, although not remember the names of all, I remember for one thing or another (A jazz concert, a conversation dark, a film session, a dinner at the German ...) and I'll never forget. And although small for a time of forgetfulness, not easily forgotten, not onlypeople but whatever. For example bastanet still remember my exact words to a guy in 2 of BUP (Year 1998-1999) when I get tired with your bullshit and your way of being claustrophobic, and I do not remember on purpose, but the other day I saw meter and remembered.
8) acknowledge that I am spiteful and that if there is something I find hard to forget are the offenses, however hard they try, if you've hurt me once, that is going to stay there for a long time to happen, and therefore , although I can blur and new account with others, with some people I can not, because it prevents my own bitterness, and so far I have not regretted.
In general I can seem quite harmless, although some discussion will force me to go through the mouth,I'm the best when I'm bad. You tend to be stubborn to the extreme and unpleasant if I propose that while in principle I am a piece of bread. Once I got to say it was a teddy bear-_-
not give me anything anything right situations that I'm under pressure because a lot and just overwhelmed me always doing the wrong thing is that I'm foolish to the extreme on many occasions ...
9) used to write often because it is something that I like and do since I was a kid. Quit for a while because everything he wrote was worse than before and I needed inspiration or go you to know that I need. The point is that since I am a frustrated writer cria who writes crap each one bigger and worse than before. From cria intente divert great imagination who was then (and that is gone by the time) artistic work without any results (and all told, with no parental support) until I point to the art studio and became director of the magazine institute and took away the win because all the response he received in return again and again was " That this does not interfere with your studies ."
All roll up does not mean that I did not write or paint happy, but as he did so poorly among other things, send him to hell to the point of removing from the web all my writings and any reference curriculum them.
10) I've always tried not to mess with people's decisions and even less in their lives if I hasked an advice, now, if asked, I say what I think, is going to feel bad or not, because after all, if I have asked is because I consider a friend and I believe that friends are not just to get together from time to time but to make you see your mistakes and support you when you try to fix them. So, although sometimes I get tired, I'm always willing to hear what they have to say those that I care and try to help if it is in my hand. Sometimes (too many) tend to be overly protective to the point that more than one occasion as a joke I have released a " If breast." I laughed at me and although I can be heavy, it is something that could not help because I hate to see suffer those who want.
Back then, I find it disgusting that I say I do like a girl and I hate feeling like a puppet in the hands of another person, I guess that's why sometimes I get angry when no big deal. Nor do I think that has complete freedom in many ways to choose this or that truth, but to what extent it is my problem or other, so try to live as best he can as a function of my values and beliefs, trying not to annoy anyone by the way, that after all, while not interfering with the freedoms of other people found're free to do whatever we want.
11) As a general rule I always try to put myself in the other, though not always succeed, and try to understand their motivations for doing the cosas, although there are some reasons beyond me and I do not understand such fanaticism (religious or otherwise), feminism end (think absurd that we better have a uterus) and the like, is that extremes are always bad, and as far as possible, should try to avoid those behaviors intransigent because benefit no one, not even their own fans.
12) I have a very bad sense of music and a voice even worse, I have always been of that learned the lyrics of songs to listen just once or twice and I wanted to sing again and again. In the scouts participated in all the festivals of song and in more than one occasion for a recital accompanying tried Machadora a singing partner Serrat adaptations, but let's face has never been my thing sing, so never have convinced me that neither will make my voice heard loudly if it is camouflaged by a lot more vocal.
That does not mean do not do it alone, I do, but never, ever in front of anyone xDD
Regarding the rest, but not enough, I'm pretty shy, and I can hardly take the lead in many things but I try change from time to time: P
13) Mmmm ... I do not think very capable of writing anything at this point the truth, so I prefer to leave it so. If you have got here I give you one when you see sugus
xDDD And now I go to class it's time ...
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